Documenting history as it happens.
Watching the shadows of the Naval Nuclear Propulsion Program march by me, I realize my cognizance of the mechanisms truly behind this driving force, that is, our foreign policy (?) and our national defense agenda, is neither required nor desired.
This seems to be especially true of junior officers of my rank and ilk. It behooves all involved, myself included, for me to remain silent
as one of the masses,
the uninformed in uniform.
This seems to concern me less and less, though. In fact, my general concern
for pumps or valves
or material condition or fluid flow
or, dare I say, nuclear physics,
is daily waning.
Oh, the blasphemy!
“I was going to forget the war. I had made a separate peace,” said LT Henry of “A Farewell to Arms.” Not for me, though. As for me, I’ll hang on, and I’ll play this sick game, for 300 more days… then I’m getting out of this cave before I know of nothing but the shadows.
“The nation that insists on drawing a broad line of demarcation between its fighting man and its thinking man is destined to have its fighting done by fools and its thinking by cowards.”
- Sir William Francis Butler
I have read this post several times in the past week or so and it makes me sad. I feel helpless to help you, helpless to change the system knowing all the while that the system “makes you” who you are and who you are becoming. Whether it is the right time to make the jump is yet to be determined. Maybe the change you seek is from the inside out not the outside in. Am I speaking of your individual change or the change of the system as a whole? Who knows? Maybe I don’t either. I do know that I have seen God’s hand in many things around me and it is not always apparent your direction ahead. He doesn’t always want us to know the direction and why things happen the way they do. We are not him, we are constantly being challenged and face things we don’t want to face. I have just been feeling his hand a great deal lately and we are yet to see his plans for you. Happy Thanksgiving!